Mother like a Musician

Have you ever seen a musician play? I mean a REAL musician…the kind that plays music with their hearts, not just their fingers. The kind that make you feel the music, not just hear it.

I have…and I absolutely LOVE it. I love seeing joy on their faces. I love seeing their bodies move with the rhythm. I love how their music changes the atmosphere.

That’s the kind of mother I want to be. The kind that reads stories with my heart, not just my lips. The kind that hugs with my soul, not just my hands. The kind that gushes with love for KidFish like no one else is looking.

Here’s an awesome example of what I mean.

How could you NOT be moved after watching this?

When people find out that I’m a stay-with-child mom, they often ask, “Are you going to homeschool?” I’m not opposed to the idea, but I really haven’t decided one way or the other. There are so many different options for educating KidFish: public, private, homeschool, un-schooling, etc.

This video with Seth Godin gives me something to think about. He asks a fundamental question: “What is school for?” and challenges me to use my answer to that question as a guide for how I educate KidFish.

Not just how, but why. Start with why. The why should dicatate the how.

If you’re interested in more, check out his manifesto “Stop Stealing Dreams.” It’s fascinating.

How much would I pay for more time with KidFish? $10,000? $100,000? $1,000,000?

I left a job that paid a $60,000/year salary to be a non-paid stay-with-child mom.
It’s been 2 ½ years now, so that equals $150,000 in lost income. Essentially, I’ve “paid” $150,000 (so far) for time with KidFish.

The way I see it, that $150,000 wasn’t lost income. It was an investment. I used that money to buy some very, very important things:

-my position as the main influencer in KidFish’s life
-opportunities to explain the world to her
-moments of spontaneous prayer, both for her and for strangers
-time to bond our hearts together
-a tangible declaration of my priorities

Could all these things have happened if I worked a 9-5 job?


Would it have been harder and more stressful?


Was it worth it? If I got to go back in time and do it over again, knowing what I know now, would I make the same choice?

YES! YES! Resounding YES!

TwoFish is challenging me to see everyday life from a new perspective. When it comes to worth, I’m seeing that value is determined by far more than just price.

Anything that just costs money is cheap.

Dance with my Cinderella

This moment in time is extremely special. I have the awesome privilege of getting to love the most amazing little girl. In the moment, washing dishes and doing laundry seem so important, but in the light of nurturing and forming a young soul, they seem so trivial.

If I desire to raise my daughter well and to teach her to be a woman of character, then it means that reading stories, stacking blocks and making memories come before doing chores.

I will never have this day with my daughter ever again. There will always be chores to be done. I will not always have a little one to raise.

Seeing what could be…


KidFish is going to do big, amazing things.

She was created for something awesome, something magical, and I get to help her figure out what that is!

Right now, she is small, she hasn’t quite mastered eating and she still needs help going up and down stairs.

And that’s OK.

Today she was rolling around on the floor.

This is what the camera saw…


But this is what I saw…


As KidFish’s mom, I get a privileged position as teacher, coach and cheerleader. I get to help her see beyond what is and help her see what could be.

KIdFish, I hope that the things you see in your mind today, you will one day be able to see with your eyes.

The Land of Good Mommies

I’m on a quest to reach a far off place called “The Land of Good Mommies.”

It’s a place where moms frolic in the grass with their children, singing and dancing while their dresses blow in the breeze. Apparently, I think it looks a lot like a scene from “The Sound of Music.”

It’s a place just beyond the mountains of discipline, just past the dry desert of eating vegetables and through the treacherous sea of potty training.

One day I hope to reach this land and finally become a “Good Mommy.”

But, you know what? Today I realized that it’s not a far off land.

It’s here.

It’s right now.

I AM living in “The Land of Good Mommies.”

How do I know? Every intentional act of love and sacrifice tells me that I’m here.

Every time I answer with a firm, gentle word instead of a harsh yell, I know I’m in “The Land of Good Mommies.”

Every time I get out of bed in the middle of the night to comfort a scared, crying KidFish instead of pretending to be asleep, I know I’m in “The Land of Good Mommies.”

Every time I answer KidFish’s request, “Will you play with me?” with a “Yes” instead of a look of annoyance for interrupting me, I know I’m in “The Land of Good Mommies.”

Every time I pray for or with KidFish, I know I’m in “The Land of Good Mommies.”

Every time I teach, guide, discipline, love, embrace, nurture or encourage KidFish, I know I’m here.

The awesome thing is we can all live in this land. We can all be Good Mommies. Every moment we have with our kids is an opportunity to be a Good Mommy. Be a Good Mommy today!

motherhood is a choice